I'm Your Queen.

Lady

Iziee Lyana
OWNED NPMBIO

Circle

.childish.recalcitrant.
loved.

♥Timeline♥

18 jan: Naufal's Birthday
26 jan: Naiimah's Birthday
12 feb: ruzanna's birthday
09 mar: Hani's birthday
19 may: shida's birthday
29 jul: Hakim's birthday
03 aug: Danial's birthday
06 aug: Mum's birthday
14 aug: Gracia's birthday
17 aug: Dhuha's birthday
19 aug: sarah's and faza's birthday
21 aug: Dad's birthday
16 sep: =)
27 oct: Lina's birthday
12 nov: sis eezarhh's birthday
26 nov: salmah's birthday
07 dec: Thomas Fizzle's Birthday!
15 dec: Izzah's birthday

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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

.watch X Family

.2nd April on NPAL

.scream

.unwind

.sleep

.read the last novel

.smile

Lyy -* 2:23 AM

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Friday, March 27, 2009

Facebook.

Q: What kind of guys do you attract?
A: Your Best Guy Friend.

Even though he acts like there is no feelings between you there is. He is deeply crushing on you! But hes the best friend you could ever have! What should you do? Well i know!! Dont confrunt him and just keep it cool because one day he will let you know how he feels and maybe by then you might have some love feelings then! but dont let it wreck your friendship!!

Has this happened before? Lol. I wonder who's next.

Iz

Lyy -* 4:56 PM

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Back from camp. Thanks Salmah for being the saviour on Monday. The performance was awesome. From the last group to the second. I was a saviour during the amazing race. They made use of my ability of memorising words in a few seconds and we were first to kick off, and also, first to come back. Shocked JJ cause he thought we aint steady enough. Yes, for a moment I felt happy I contributed in the amazing race and the formation for song signing. I did well for the sign language test and interview in sign language. It was great. I managed to get myself a good status too, which was surprisingly shocking. Next semester would be a little busy, I guess.

Well, happy for a moment, I do treasure that. Now, too many things happened and the bad thing is that its pretty heart wrenching somehow. So dont ask me questions regarding my life if you meet me. I dont mind talking bout random stuffs, just not anything about life. I hate seeing people in pain. God has made everything come clumping together. So now, my 20 yrs old cousin is diagnosed with a cancer in which he kept it for a year and we are still waiting for the results to show us what stage is it in now. Is this another case of punishment? I hope his heart is now open to God and he will learn to cherish his parents more than his other useless siblings. USELESS with missing heart people.

Yes, thinking back, Salmah has a point. She sees me differently now. Maybe I am a little different now. Well, thats life, isnt it?

Lyy -* 1:13 PM

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Friday, March 20, 2009

I know its time I should just clarify things out

For I have kept it within for a long time.

I am sorry for being missing.

I am sorry for not being there when you needed me.

I am sorry for being ungrateful.

I am sorry for not being a good friend.

I am sorry if you think that I have taken all

For granted.

I am sorry for not cherishing you as I should

Until the day it changes everything.

I am sorry if I make matters worse.

I am sorry if I am a disappointment.

I am sorry if I am not up to your expectation.

I am sorry for not being perfect.

In the mean time, time got so mean that one got carried away.

There's so many things that one wants to cry out on but one doesnt feel like saying it.

There are times when it got so bad that one drowned so deep.

There are certain things that are not ought to be shared cause sympathy aint what one needs.

There are certain crucial moments when one has to understand.

And this time, please give me time to regain myself

And pray that I shall be strong and gain full condfidence

So I can strive and be a better person, sibling, child, friend

And shape a better future.

Thanks for being kind to understand this plight.

Give me time to sort out my thinking and get back in line.

You dont need to learn about it. Just understand it.

Thank you.

Labels: SORRY.

Lyy -* 12:34 AM

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

Mak, when will Anja recover? 1 day? 2 days? 5 days? Maybe its 67 days.

But the fact is that he'll never recover. He is sleeping forever. But none of us there could answer Danial's questions. Only tears welled up. He was the closest to him among all. I wonder if this was the same trick my mum put on me when my granddad died when I was three. I, too, thought he was sleeping. I went to the cemetery around noon. I managed not to cry but it was too much to bear when we're at the cemetery itself. His brother didnt want to budge from the place and kept sobbing like an 8 year old. At that moment, I felt like hugging and consoling him but he's already 20. It took time for his elder brother, now the eldest, to pull him up and hug him tightly. That, made me sobbed. It was touching. Too touching. Even though we're just neighbours. He was a good brother. One in a million.

Here's something to smile at. Cheer up. Airing tomorrow on Channel 5. Ellen.

Lets chill out tmr. =)
Iz

Lyy -* 10:44 PM

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

i just got back from my neighbour's house. Solemn. Sorrow.
I sat directly in front of the corpse but funnily it didnt freak me out.
I wanted to cry, on the verge of crying, but I held back.
Mum told me about his dying moments.

As I stated in my blog, he was out of coma and was put in normal ward. He was actually smiling and laughing and all. So everyone thought he'd recovered. I was actually glad. Then yesterday noon there, he smiled and waved and told his mum, ' Look, at last, they've come.' His mum glanced around to find no one. She asked him why he'd say something like that. 'Mama, I am going to die. My time is not long in this world. They've come to fetch me. Dont you ever worry about me', he said with a smile. His mum scolded him for saying such stuff and didnt want to believe him. I think he saw the angels already.

At around 8pm, his heartbeat stopped when the nurse was cleaning him. He was rushed to ICU. and around midnight, he passed away.

I cried after that cause I was touched. I sat thinking if I were to die, will people send me prayers? Will I get to see the angels like him or will I die in my sleep? Will people cry for me? Will I be happy cause God's taking me away from my beloved family?

Its horribly sad if I were to put myself in the family's shoe. I think I need to fetch a tissue or two now. And going down after sending brother to school. I love everyone

Iz

Lyy -* 10:07 AM

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I know I never blogged in the morning my whole life. But today, this life is going to experience a slight change. Their neighbour directly beside them passed away two days ago. And now, Abang Hamzah, my neighbour, whom I said just slipped out of coma, went into critical condition last night. This morning, I received a news from mum that he passed away peacefully in the ICU around midnight. Its really sad because I have been looking forward to see him around soon and I didnt get to see the last of him. I want to say hi and smile at him again.

All his life, he was the one who took care of his already sick parents more than his other siblings whom I can say, dont really care about their parents. He was the strong, dependable, hardworking, amiable one but yet, he has to go first. He was the eldest, and a bachelor. I must say, God took the wrong person's life even though it's the right person's life. God loves him more than we all do and wanted him to not commit more mistakes in his future life. Maybe all this is just a lesson somehow. It served as a reminder too that you have to treasure your life and put it into good use because you dont know when is your turn to leave the world, including performing duties to HIM. Losing him made me shed tears though I am someone not really related, I dont really know why. Maybe its because he has helped my family when he was still a healthy man alot of times.

He's going to be cremated at 10.30 am later. I am going but I hope I wont cry. But I know that can't happen. I will send my prayers to him cause -
May his soul rest in peace. Al- fatihah.

Allahyarham Muhd. Hamzah
10.02.2009
25 yrs old
Al- Fatihah.

Lyy -* 7:44 AM

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Monday, March 9, 2009

OK. Weekends's good. Went for Kuliah Subuh on Sunday, my first time and I swear I was very sleepy. We listened to the ustaz's ceramah after subuh till 7.30am. The aunt beside my mum already dozed off. Lol. Then, we went to my niece's 5th birthday and she peed in her pants and didnt want to tell us the truth. Funny. Went to granny's for kenduri cuase my cousins and yada yada going off for pilgrimage during the school hols.

LJ has opened and KFC and BK looking for workers. Mum and aunts said I should go but I told her, not glam la..LOL.
One of my aunts indirectly called me FAT. yes. FAT. She was like saying so loudly, ' yana, the last time I saw you, you were like this (showed me two fingers) how come now you are already like this?(showed me four fingers).

She was lucky its me she said that to. She's lucky I was in a good mood. If its my sister, she'd died cause my sis talked like a gangsta. I told her, FAT was happy and anyways I was bored at home. And food is for survival, mind you. tsk. tsk.

My neighbour died today. We didnt go melawat cause we were rushing off somewhere. May his soul rest in peace. Abg Hamzah is out of coma, but he is still weak. So, he's still spending boring hours/days/weeks in ICU. I pray for his well-being.

I kept dreaming about that same person when I dont even talk about that person or think about that person or miss that person. Its really annoying sometimes. OK. Most of the time, that is. I think thats an indication but pssh, I think I shouldnt get bothered over a dream.

MY VFC SECRET got posted up already. Its totally DOPE!
*allsmiles.

Ok. I am collecting points for Smexy and log off. My dad gave me time till 9 and its 5 minutes past 9. Holy bananas. Talking about bananas..oh well, nevermind. Inside Joke. Bahaa

Iz 'the-shy-one' Lyana

Lyy -* 8:48 PM

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Friday, March 6, 2009

I want this so bad. Its a merchandise from band, School Boy Humor. Their songs are nice. It is US$10! boo-

& this, i was watching Ellen today and she was recapping. I think she can sing.. And I dont know, I just think its amusing and amazing somehow. I like Josh. =D

This is one more funny one. I think its going to be aired like monday or something. John Mayer talking about how he 'let his hair down'..totally disgusting!

GUESS WHAT?! I am freaking happy that I can soon indulge myself with more fastfood..HAHA! I mean, i love fast food. I promise I am going to exercise after I eat. I cant resist seeing KFC, LJS and Burger King just a few steps away from my block!!! KFC is at the entrance and LJS,BK are at the basement..wowee! LJS is opeing pretty soon. muahahhaa! The next time you see me, I'll be having a bigger united nations. I cant wait for the shops to be opened... Oh! And there's Ramen Ten too..lol. dont need to travel all the way to Far East to eat RT. Anw, I still prefer fastfood. haha!

Lyy -* 11:21 PM

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I laugh at the slightest thing. I love laughing at what people write. Especially LIM Shi Hong and Kim. Lol. So, today was all about Josiah, Kendrick, Shi Hong and the stupid note.LOL. I was laughing like a mad woman and my sis grew mad at me cause she was studying. Oh well, cant help it. I am easily entertained. heehee~

Ok. I think I am going to sleep since I am just done with Smexy.
OOhh. almost everyone is getting themselves a twitter! Even Amin Muffin is following me.haha!
CJ hit the gym a few hours back.LOL. And Jayk cooked. I dont know if it taste like burnt chicken. LOL. See..i think I am loving twitter. See you

Iz

Lyy -* 1:41 AM

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Thursday, March 5, 2009

I...
seriously think that I am addicted to Push Play. I am in a very bad state of OPPD. Seeing them online makes me incredibly happy. Damnation! I think they came to my dreams without me knowing and drugged me.

Oh, I have twitter here under the 'SHE'. Well, i did it for fun and because I love following up to people's updates. You know me, I kaypo a little here and there. haha.

I am just thinking...IF I HAVE THE MONEY TO JUST BE ANYWHERE I WANT TO, it'll be freaking heaven. Wowwee~

I need to think straight. :S

Iz

Lyy -* 1:15 AM

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Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I figured out what i wanted to blog about in the wee hours last night. Its about the merlion.
Lim Shi Hong and were talking about it cause his pm caught my interest so we went on talking about LKY, the merlion and feng shui.

Well, according to him merlion was installed, moved to new location on LKY's birthday, in which happens to be my brithday too. So we were linking the whole thing to the lightning accident a few days back. I read the papers and they wrote about feng shui, like the lightning struck incident is a bad omen for either Singapore or south part of Singapore. Lim said it might be a bad omen for LKY too. It's just an opinion.

I hope this will not be a sensitive issue. I'm a teenager. And teenagers think wild sometimes. So spare me.

So, chinese believes in feng shui and malays, we have something like that too but to me its a certain logic. Well, I am not being racist but stating my point of view here since we worshipped different gods. The feng shui prediction is as mentioned above. Now, I'll link it to malay beliefs. Ok, not really what most malays believe but something I believe.

As you know, malays (muslims) aint allowed to gamble. Its restricted by our God and religion. And the IRs are going to be build over at the south part of the country. It means that if more malays are to gamble there, something bad might happen. In the religion's eyes, it is sinful to gamble but you know some people just close one eye and go ahead. Well, no one is stopping them.

If we are to look up our holy Quran, many stories have been told that those people who is ingkar against the God, they'll be punished. Muslims believe that God will punish us both on earth and during judgement day.

So I hope you get what I am trying to say. That is, I, too believe that this is a bad omen. I stress that I am not being racist but this is just a comparison of what we all believe. IR means more work. But what is the point when it is haram? I just hope that God spare us all.
We are a small country. He made us all. We should just bear in mind he can take everything away from us in a wink. If you know what I mean.

I think I have to change for good. We still have time.

Iz

Labels: merlion

Lyy -* 2:27 PM

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ok. i swear i cant take this anymore.
the oversecretion of only-sarah-knows-what cant stop secreting whatever it bounds to secrete!

and i dont know if it contributes to one of the reasons why i find it hard to sleep.
its 2.30am and i am not feeling sleepy at all. and i didnt consume coffee today. i know i need to rest but i just cant seem to do so. So, i was writing/typing a story out. i am done with 3 chapters already, posted 1st chapter on my other blog in which i will not enclose the url here. and i dont know if you guys can google it. lol. I seriously cant be bothered to check tenses and stuffs. i'm plain lazy. i had the story in mind for a few months and this is the first time i am penning it down. i use simple english cause i cant be bothered to use those chimmyy words. Its called Squad B. i dont know if you can still find it if you google it by typing that.

Its about those teen undercover agents kinda story. I am obsessed with that kind of fiction stories. The reason why i love Mr & Mrs Smith, Agent Cody Banks and a few more movies like that. I've always imagined Squad B as a movie. It is easier to pen down.

Ok. I guess I am getting tired already. and its 3 minutes to .45am. today would be the third day i am sleeping at 3 am and waking up at 9.30 in the morning (if i do again).

I think its time i take my contact lenses. I cant take it.
STOP SECRETING! DAMNATION.

Ok. 'This Is Me' malay version just played on TV2. copycats. -
I wanna blog about something racist but not really racist but i forgot what it is about already. Oh well, isnt that better?

Iz

Lyy -* 2:27 AM

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Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Adisson Apparel. [thomas fiss's new clothing line launching mid-march]

So believe that angels

ignore the possibility

That it is impossible to keep you safe

But still so far from me

i missed him quite a few times on the chat but thats okay. All the best for AdissonApparels. I've yet to congratulate him. Well, that can be done later. =)

Labels: adisson apparels, thomas michael fiss, vfc

Lyy -* 2:08 AM

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I'm having a hard time coping with boredom.
I'm indulging myself in books.
I think I am totally bored and building up fats.

Today:
I read VFC secrets and laughed off my bum.
I cleaned my pet and earned some points.
I met azlan. (when i thought he's long gone)
I spent time on Facebook.
I set new record for my Word Challenge.
I kept pinching myself to feel my fats.
I sat down and switched on to songs I burnt on the CD a few years back (it brought back memories)
I went to Yew Tee Square with mum, NTUC to be exact. (YEAY! we have Long John!!!suweett!) I had a private performance with myself, my imaginary band and my imaginary fans.
I woke up up at 8.30, went to living room, made a u-turn to my room, slept again. woke up at 9, went to the living room, made a u-turn to my room, slept again. woke up at 9.30.

Tomorrow, I'll be accompanying mom for her check-up at AH. I just hope it wont be long. I'm a homey person. YES. Imma couch ~~potato~~ for now. I've to sort out things pretty soon.

Oh yes. My dream.
I dreamt of the 6 of us, Kranji Secondary School, 2007 sec 4 batch, khai (? i dont know why he's in 'our school'), my Primary school principal being one of the teachers in KSS. I dont wish to elaborate. But it was funny. We sorta like..crashed into KSS.lol. whatever.

Its 2am now. I think I will sing myself to sleep. And dream about Enrique Iglesias or CJ or Thomas or that guy from SchoolBoyHumor or other hot stuffs.
Yeah.

FAZA HATES BRINJAL. SO DO I. =)

Iz

Lyy -* 1:44 AM

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Lyy -* 1:44 AM

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Monday, March 2, 2009

=/
my neighbour is up from coma.=) thank god.
went to geylang to buy some clothes for aunt's wedding. i designed and of course, mum will be my tailor. the strong winds nearly blew me away! o.0!! okay. that was abit exaggerating but yeah. Sis was walking like a frail old lady cause her slippers has no friction. bahaha

weekends: mee soto!
we were doing work in the kitchen and there was a sudden loud buzzing noise. I thought it was the attack of huge swarms of bees. NAH. Huge SWARM of motorcyle mats honking and vrooming. Seriously, it was a huge SWARM. I got kinda excited cause I've never seen such a huge no. of motorcycles like on the roads near my house my entire life. I swore there were like more than 30 motorcycles(or more), a few vans and 2 cars. It was red light and imagine the noise. They created such a nuisance! Such showoffs. So when the green light took over the red, its like I'm seeing a repetion of motorcycles vrooming off. It was crazy. I was actually waiting for the line to end. lol.

oh, remeber there's a HUGE rainbow on Friday? I caught it..lol Gonna post pics up soon! I love rainbows! Ok, random i know.

Iziee

Lyy -* 12:31 AM

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